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Who Knew...

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 17:42:21 GMT

Who knew that a wilderness could be so much fun! I love where God placed me and who God is making me into. God I love you so much! I thank you joyfully for these seasons of molding and forming...
You refine me...burn up the things that are not substantial until only you remain...
Let me be like this:

"Also in the furnace were rough pieces of stone and rock containing crystals. These were upt in the great heat of the oven and left for a time. On being taken out, behold, they were glorious jewels, flashing as though they had received the fire into their very hearts."
-Hannah Hurdnard-

Let me receive even fire into my very heart...
In Jesus' Name,
Amen...

Perfect

Tue, 27 May 2008 15:55:03 GMT

"There is nothing better for a person than that he should eat and drink and find enjoyment in his toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God, for apart from Him who can eat or who can have enjoyment?"

"Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers. Every good gift and every PERFECT gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change."

The most amazing and astounding thing...Jesus IS ALIVE!

Reflections...

Fri, 23 May 2008 17:31:46 GMT

I realized I'm still insecure about speaking since the Baja trip where I failed miserably
I realized that I still have the ability to be a good speaker
I realized that I pick up on things well especially if I think about them like I think of Drama Training...do everything over the top and it's probably about right
I realized that it's okay to cry in front of people...but I hate it
I realized that I can pick myself back up and still be strong and confident

God be with me...
Nina

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Wed, 21 May 2008 00:21:19 GMT

I am learning to love and to live at peace...
God is Faithful...even when we are faithless
How can this be? But it still is...Lord, I am amazed by you...how you love me!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Sun, 18 May 2008 05:47:09 GMT

I have learned so much from being in California...I have realized that sometimes I desire intimacy and a relationship but the fact that God has provided me with amazing friendships is something I should never take for granted. I love my friends. I love hanging out with Lyssah and Christina. I like meeting new people like Autumn.

I also realized that sometimes through my desires, I must praise God. He is Awesome in our Praises. He is awesome by himself but He can only be awesome in us if we Praise and Magnify Him. God is Worthy. As we praise, He is able to open up the heavens and rain down the spiritual blessings He has prepared for Us. Praise is not thanking Him for what He has done. We don't praise Him because of His answering our prayers...that's Thanksgiving. We Praise Him because we have breath and if we don't cry out, the rocks will...

God has spiritual blessings and physical blessings on the way but He dwells in the Praises of His people...
I learned this from Pastor Randy at Celebration Church in Fresno

Thank you, God for the time here. I love you!
Nina

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 20:38:22 GMT

I think life is getting better. I know the Lord has great things for me and I'm excited to see them coming to fruition. He is great and mighty! I am awed by His goodness and grace in my life. Where can I go from Him and why would I want to???

Be blessed, all...

So What Now???

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 17:09:52 GMT

Do you ever just wonder what will happen next?
I feel restless and impatient...
Sometimes I wish the future was here now but other times I am thankful that it isn't.
God...teach me to wait
It's the hardest thing...and the best

Reflections of a Single Life

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 01:52:14 GMT

I have several thoughts right now:
1. The older I become, the more I long for a relationship
2. The fact that I long for a relationship, doesn't make me discontent in the Lord
3. I am torn between the present and the future
4. The best way to guard my heart is to take my thoughts captive and release them to God
5. It's weird that there are no prospects in my life
6. I'm good with the fact that there are no prospects in my life
7. I am constantly amazed at the fact that God longs for me
8. I long for God
9. There is no man who will ever satisfy what God alone can satisfy
10. I am single, but I'm not alone
11. I wonder when the time will come
12. I know when the time comes it will be good...
13. I sometimes doubt that I deserve an amazing man of God
14. I want to believe
15. I am frail and imperfect
16. God is perfect
17. I pray for my husband
18. I'm impatient
19. I'm patient
20. I want my husband to come in God's time
21. My heart is completely safe in God...

Beloved, you'll have to search deeply in God to find me for I'm hidden to all but the one who God has for me...
God, keep him for me...
God, keep me for him...
"To live, that will be a great adventure..." Peter Pan in Hook (not exact quote; it's more of a paraphrase)

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:54:28 GMT

If you think of it, pray against fear in my house. I think the Enemy is really trying to bring fear there. Thanks!

Nina

God has not given us a spirit of fear but of Power and of Love and of a sound mind!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 19:09:04 GMT

So, I am not going to be a PD this year. I've learned so much during my mexico trip and I pray that God will finish the process that He began on my trip. He is so faithful.

By His grace, I am restored.